I miss my sex drive. The past couple months I have been seeing glimpses of it. The past week when Nick gives me my morning spanks I will feel the tingle between my legs. We went on a trip to celebrate Nick’s birthday and all I wanted was to lay across his lap and feel his hand slap my ass.
As exciting as those developments are, I still can’t always find the energy or desire to have him take me. At about 7:00 pm I am so ready for bed that I would give anything to just crawl into bed and fall asleep.
Am I just too tired to think about sex, or is it something more? I recently left the job that was emotionally draining. I have been able to cut back my anti-depressants, but it doesn’t seem to be bringing things back as fast as I would like.
I am hoping to start seeing more glimpses of my libido in the weeks to come, but I will admit I am not hopeful. I am starting to hit a desperation point. Wondering if I need to find a medication whether prescribed or over the counter.
In the meantime I guess I will do what I can. Maybe get myself some caffeine before bed and get myself an appointment with my doctor to discuss my options.